November 25, 2008

Oh, that's right! We have a blog!

We've had a very fun fall. Apparently too fun as we've been too busy to share updates with y'all. Hailey has gained quite a bit of mobility since I last posted which has contributed to my not having any computer time.
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Here are a few little highlights--
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Hailey "ran" in her first organized race via her jogging stroller. This was the Intermountain Donor Services 5K. It was such a fun experience. Poppa got to mingle with other transplant recipients and their families.
P.S. Please, please be an organ donor & let your family know about it!
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Another race. My first post-baby 10K with my little munchkin cheering from the sidelines. Aaron took this "lovely" pic immediately post-run. So you'll have to excuse the forced red-faced, exhausted grin and truly unattractive hair! Man, this felt great though! The course was pretty hill-y and I honestly did not believe I could do this without walking a single step. I used to look at my runner friends and think they were both crazy and amazing. I vividly remember my dear friend Rachel talking about running 6 miles on a Saturday and being completely in awe of her. I thought I could never do anything like that. (My squatty little frame is not built for speed and I considered myself a little wimpy.) I never believed that I would later be running farther than that and actually enjoying it.
The entire Brighton cheer squad showed up to run this race, complete in uniforms. Most of these darling little muffins were ahead of me and it was downright depressing for me. It was like figuratively AND literally trying to keep up with my former self. All this while trying to recover mentally, emotionally and physically from the whole new mom thing which had been so trying for me. Well in grand Amy tradition, I just kept at it -- slow and steady -- and by the 3rd mile they had all dropped out. I finished this small race happily awhile later feeling I'd overcome so much of what I'd been struggling with. I look back now and a simple 10K was such a small victory. But so much has changed in my life over the last several years that this was significant for me ... as a new runner ... a new mom ... a new person.
I am STILL in awe of my incredible runner friend! I just understand it now and I'm willing to try to keep up with her.
Here's Hailey with Aaron at a family party nearly winning a limbo contest. In case you can't tell, he is Aladdin and she is Abu. I was Princess Jasmine, but I'll spare you the pictures of that disgrace! Aaron picked the costumes this year. I guess next year is my turn. I'd better start entertaining some ideas to out-do him.
Round 2 of costumes for Hailey. This is the one she wore to her Kindermusik class on Halloween. Of course she also wanted to keep the hat on throughout the grocery store & other errands which made for some comments.
First trip to the zoo for the munchkin on her birthday. Aunt Holly also came with cousins Elizabeth and Anna. Hailey was in HEAVEN. She just loves animals so it was a pretty perfect birthday for her. Warm, sunny, just all around pleasant.
Maybe you're wondering what the heck Aaron is doing. Well, he has just been working quite a bit as usual. But things are starting to slow for the holidays, which he loves! I suppose we'll be using the slow time to acquire some more properties for ourselves as usual. So I guess there isn't really a "slow" time for him. He was able to take a couple of really fun "MAN-cations" this fall though. He went for a summer's last hurah to Lake Powell with his good friend Brandon and some other guys I don't know. He also went for a jam-packed golf weekend in St. George with the Fransons + like 20 more guys I don't know. I'd love to tell you more about these trips. But when Aaron talks about 63 holes of premium golf in barely 2 days, my eyes just glaze over. I like golf ... but not THAT much! I'm more of Fore Lakes kinda' girl.

July 28, 2008

Tagged. I'm it!

The last 3 things I purchased:

- Del Taco lunch for Aaron ... gross!

- An outfit for Miss Hailey

- A haircut .

The last 3 songs I downloaded: Honestly, don't remember. It's been that long! .

The last 3 places I visited:

- My parents

- Bear Lake

- Cabin w/ Oakesons .

My 3 favorite movies:

- Waiting for Guffman

- Soapdish or maybe Clueless?

- American Beauty What varied taste I apparently have! .

My 3 favorite possessions:

- Rental Props ... anything that brings in the $$$$ :)

- The 4-wheelers/Dirt Bikes ... now I just need some time to ride!

- iPod .

3 things I can't live without:

- My hubby!

- My Hailey!

- Exercise .

My 3 wishes:

- Happiness and health for my family

- Peace

- More endurance ... physical and spiritual .

3 things I haven't done yet:

- Visited somewhere they don't speak English

- Eaten sushi, seriously.

- Snowboarding .

My 3 favorite dishes:

- Any kind of fabulous baked something with chocolate in it

- Most of the "grilled cheese of the day" at Citrus Grill -- esp. Apple & Brie

- Buca salad with x-tra dressing .

3 celebs I'd want to hang out with:

- James Taylor

- Nicholas Cage

- David Sedaris, especially if he brought his sister Amy! .

3 things that freak me out:

- Of course, anything happening to my sweet husband & baby!

-Bad teeth

- Socialism .

3 things I'm good at:

- Trivia games

- Entertaining a 9 month old

- Apparently making some quality milk ... Have you seen the size of my kid!? .

3 things I'm currently coveting:

- My old body

- Babies who take really long naps

- A bigger place / Some great dirt to build on about 10 steps from this place. .

3 bloggers I tag

- Kellie

- Crumps

- Holly

July 22, 2008

30+ hours of agony for a lifetime of glory?

So it looks like I'll actually be DOING this ... not alone, of course, but with 11 other women who are apparently just as crazy and EXCITED as I am! So I'm up mapping runs for this week & stressing over my slow times from last week (as I came down with a gross cold!) & thinking about the reality of this race. So I check the website and see that there are teams that took 36 hours to run this last time. Probably teams of regular moms like ours! :) And I ask myself if 36 hours of agony (with some fun sprinkled in) is worth it? Worth what? What will I even get out of this? Then I realize that I'll be getting exactly what I need out of this. So some of you know that I have been in a real funk. The transition from driven, young, childless money-maker to mostly-stay-at-home-mommy has not been kind to me emotionally. I've felt "ruined" ... and not just the physical ruin that comes from birthing a 10 lb. baby! Physically you can -- contrary to my greatest fears -- come back from that. This idea of being "ruined" ... I don't know if that makes any sense to you mommies out there? Don't get me wrong. I am crazy in love with my little Lulu! That's not the issue here at all. The issue has been the huge shift from my former life, my former self to this strange new existence where Dear Husband and I are not first ... or even in the top 5 anymore. That plus the fact that I don't even really get to pee when I'd like to. I have a hard time enjoying the few things that are supposed to be just for me. There's always something more pressing now. Even our business has taken on a new urgency that has really been sucking the joy out of it. These are the things that I'm sure people try to tell you about, but you just aren't ready to understand before the bomb drops. So normally I'm able to just man up & get 'r done ... a quality for which I'm grateful to my Torgersen roots! But one night in particular I was having quite the pity party. Poor husband had to listen to my list of sorrows including: Not feeling I'm progressing/working toward something for ME, boredom with my workouts not working out (I work so hard & after 8 months I still have a few lbs to go!), feeling disconnected and lonely, need some mommy friends but nobody's in my boat b/c I'm such an old first-timer, blah blah blah. Anyhow, I was really feeling particularly crappy when the phone rings & Aaron says it's for me. It's a favorite neighbor friend asking me if I want to run in this RIDICULOUS race in the spring with yet another favorite neighbor friend. Before I can even think about all the reasons I shouldn't do this, a big "YES" comes out of my mouth & it feels GREAT! Here's where it gets embarrassing, but whatever! I hang up the phone so she can find 9 other crazies to make a full team and ... BIG TEARS. You see, if you reference my above list of new-mommy gripes, you'll see that this one event pretty much addressed all of my issues. I get to spend the better part of the next several months training and focusing on something that I LOVE, for ME. And I get to do it with people I love, in a neighborhood I love. And I'll get to achieve something that I didn't think I could ever do. Something that I could never do alone, but I would do anywhere, anytime with the support of 11 other tough chicks! So yeah, I know it's just a race. But for me it was evidence of a Heavenly Father who was aware of my struggle and loved me enough to address it in a most perfect way ... with a CHALLENGE! Now challenge part 2 which I gave to Aaron in no uncertain terms last week. "Hey! No knockin' me up until after June! I am not running this thing pregnant!"

July 09, 2008

"Families with babies and families without babies are sorry for each other." --Ed Howe

With the new arrival of B&B's sweet little Braden, I was astonished at how tiny and delicate he was. Hailey was never that small -- at least on the outside. But it got me to thinking about how Hailey will never be this small again ...

... which is wonderful ... and makes me painfully sad all at the same time.

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But then again, I may never be as small again either which is almost as painful!